Blast from the Past

The whole month for me was a blast. I did not had the time to blog because other things are making me too occupied to do so. Things are doing well for Jan and me so the whole month was really a blessing.

We conquered Divisoria. Our company will celebrate its anniversary this October 28 ( which was postponed ) and we supposedly had to attend the event in costume. The theme was the Immortals ( which was changed to Mutants ) so Jan accompanied me to Divisoria to shop. I was really overwhelmed by the vast amount of choices I had at Divisoria. It was a paradise for me. 168 Mall is the number 1 shopping mall in my list now. I kept on drooling over the bags, shoes, the dresses, almost drooled about everything. Jan kept telling me that I look like a child who was first brought by his parents on a theme park. This was also my first time to shop with Jan and it went pretty well. I ask for his opinion about the clothes I was thinking of buying and he was very cooperative in giving his views. A plus point for him. A boyfriend that can be tag along not just to carry my shopping bags but a guy who I can really spend the essence of shopping with. The day was not enough for my shopping spree but we need to go home early to make the other essentials needed in my Angel costume. So its bye bye Divisoria for now.

I conquered Luneta Park. I know , it sounds weird and unpatriotic but I haven't been to Luneta. Not until Jan, while on out way home from Divisoria, spontaneously thought of making me experience the Luneta tour I have been asking him for months. I got the chance to see the dancing fountain, the scale model of the Philippine archipelago and the walk in the park I have always wanted to experience. That's 2 birds in one shot. I fell even more inlove with Jan for making me feel like a kid.

DVD marathon madness with The Game of Thrones. Jan and I have been staying up late for this past few days watching season 1 of this series, which was by the way, my favorite series at present. The story is full of intrigues, conflicts, indecent affairs and other interesting twist that makes it unique and interesting than other series' out there. We can't wait to see Season 2. Now we are currently watching Teen Wolf Season 1 while waiting for The Game of Thrones.


All in all, the month was a blissful happy one. Though we will be spending a few days apart because of the long weekend, we have a lot of happy thoughts and memories to think of while we are apart. I would be bringing my guitar after the holidays so expect me to blog about that in the near future. Stay in love everyone.

Caught Him Doing It Again

I don't know how many times already but I caught him "texting" someone else again. We have been living together for 3 months already and I really do believe that he loves me but he just can't keep his promise on not flirting with girls through SMS anymore. I hate it, but he keeps on telling me that he is serious with me and those text messages were merely "playtime" for him. 
I just don't get it, why do mend tend to stray away and manages to give justice for these actions. It's so unfair. We had a fight this morning because of that issue. Are we girls not suppose to meddle with our guys text messages? If not, are we supposed to be left blinded with their flirting and games? I hope he realizes how much I really do care for him. I hope he stops doing this. It really hurts.

To Be Loved

Finally, Jan's back. I was so excited and happy. Every color went back to high resolution. The sarcastic remarks were still there but that's how he is. And I love every piece of sarcasm he has in his personality. I know this is all a part of the facade and the defense mechanism he has. A defense to make people see that he has a strong personality, a part of him that I accept whole heartily.
Last night our office had a paint ball battle at The Fort. I was half present in every moment. I really wanted to be with Jan but I had to attend the event. My life seems to be twirling around him. I was unable to eat a full meal because I kept of thinking about him. He stayed up and waited for me at our place. We bonded a little, but the weekend is almost near so after more that a week of being not around, two nights was the only time we can give to each other. I really miss sleeping near him, laughing with him and practically doing anything about him. 
Earlier this morning I had a short drama at breakfast, I was not speaking as much like I used to and he noticed. He started to make conversation but I chose to ignore it and went of to take a bath. Before we leave the house, I could not keep the problem to myself. I told him if he feels weird now that I am all over him again. He easily understood my petty whim and told me that he was just tired and everything is still the same. I know my readers would find my post somewhat non consistent. But even though that's the case, I am still consistently inlove with my Jan.

One More Lonely Night to Go

Today is the last day of Jan's training. He will be having his practicum at a location near SM Calamba. We even have a petty fight yesterday because I was asking him if he was excited for his practicum. The usual him sarcastically replied via SMS asking me why would he be excited about the feat, that he is not a kid anymore to be excited about small things like that. Of course, I already accepted this quirk of him months ago. I just ended up telling him to relax and don't make a fuzz about me asking him about how he feels. He is just like that. "Mr. I am Not the Emotional Type". I love that thing about him.
Going back, since it would be his last day away from me today, I would most probably be sleeping in his arms again by tomorrow night. It was really been a restless week for me when it comes to sleeping. Even the slightest of noise wakes me up. That's the paranoid in me that usually disappears when he is around. I really miss his masculine scent, how he looks when he sleeps. I really thank God for bringing him into my life.

Baby Blues

I thought I was pregnant, but I was actually now. My monthly period came a week after the supposed date so I was already entertaining thoughts of pregnancy. I was also having potato frenzy. French fries, hash browns, baked potato. potato salad. The potato craziness was already going on for a week so I was thinking that I was already "naglilihi". Last night I even bought a pregnancy test kit. It was negative but I kept on re-doing the test hoping it would end up having two-lines instead of the repetitive one liner I am getting.
But just like how life supposedly is, today I had my period. What a laugh. I already told Jan about me thinking I was pregnant and me having a negative result on my pregnancy test. He was cool about it. He doesn't really worry a lot about things, has practically no drama and issues in life. That's one of the things I love the most about him, no drama, no moments of angst , practically, I have no one to compete with when I want to make drama about things. Going back on the baby issue, I would really love to have one before the year ends. Just gotta keep my fingers crossed.

Barely Surviving

I am barely surviving from Jan's physical absence. Last night after having a dose of large fries and double chocolate sundae, I felt more depressed and even lonelier. I miss sharing treats with my guy. It's the first night he was not at home and I barely survived. I promised not to cry but on the first night I already did. I have never felt so lonely. Waking up was also a mess. I needed to be at work at 8am but there I was still in my bed looking for the familiar face I have accustomed seeing for the past 3 months. Jan makes me feel needed, he makes me act responsible. So him not being around brought back the irresponsible me. I just wish time could fly faster than usual for me to be able to be with him again. I really miss him so much..

Missing Him Already

I know this may sound so immature but I am really having my stomach in twitches these past few days. Jan will undergo a week of training. He will have his SMAW ( Shielded Metal Arc Welding ) and SOLAS ( Safety of Life at Sea ) from September 14, 2011 - September 21, 2011. He have been planning to attend these training even before I came into his life and these training is really very essential in his career growth. I am a supportive girlfriend and we have talked about this many times. Still, I am starting to feel so lonely just knowing that I would not be with him for 8 days. We go to the same company, were also "roomies", so it will really be the first time I won't be with him for a long period of time. I'm starting to miss him already. He's an alpha male and wants me to be just a bit of an alpha female, so expressing how I would be sulking and crying and missing him to him is definitely a no no. I do hope to get a lot of text messages from him though, or a call, to lessen the sadness, his absence would bring.