To Be Loved

Finally, Jan's back. I was so excited and happy. Every color went back to high resolution. The sarcastic remarks were still there but that's how he is. And I love every piece of sarcasm he has in his personality. I know this is all a part of the facade and the defense mechanism he has. A defense to make people see that he has a strong personality, a part of him that I accept whole heartily.
Last night our office had a paint ball battle at The Fort. I was half present in every moment. I really wanted to be with Jan but I had to attend the event. My life seems to be twirling around him. I was unable to eat a full meal because I kept of thinking about him. He stayed up and waited for me at our place. We bonded a little, but the weekend is almost near so after more that a week of being not around, two nights was the only time we can give to each other. I really miss sleeping near him, laughing with him and practically doing anything about him. 
Earlier this morning I had a short drama at breakfast, I was not speaking as much like I used to and he noticed. He started to make conversation but I chose to ignore it and went of to take a bath. Before we leave the house, I could not keep the problem to myself. I told him if he feels weird now that I am all over him again. He easily understood my petty whim and told me that he was just tired and everything is still the same. I know my readers would find my post somewhat non consistent. But even though that's the case, I am still consistently inlove with my Jan.